Have you ever had one of those weeks where you felt numb? You are still showing up for work, showing up for the household and kids, working out, eating, but it is as if your soul is searching for a fire to be reignited in you.
The Spiral
I am coming out of one of those weeks. Lots of crying, lots of walking through the house talking to myself, replaying scenarios and situations that have happened. Recalling moments where I felt mistreated and didn’t stand up for myself. I begin to spiral into a place I didn’t know I could come out of. It is as if I begin to even question those close to me and even analyze conversations that I would typically ignore. Am I the only one? In all of this chaos, I was reminded that the Lord will fight for you.
There was a push for prayer. I contemplated, “oh, I don’t feel like praying tonight”, but there was this pull in me to just sit in my prayer closet or just turn on some music, just open the bible. That push was what I needed. It kept my heart meditating on the word. No matter what thoughts may come, I still have the word flowing through me and in me as a reminder of God’s promise.
Discerning The Moment
During this time, I was studying a chapter in Exodus. I know I was led here because I kept recounting a situation that happened to me that I could not understand in the moment, and it was as if I wanted to hold a grudge towards this person, but I still pushed to show compassion as if I knew something deeper was being refined in me.
In the book of Exodus, Ch 14, God hardened Pharaoh’s heart that he could pursue after the Israelites thinking that they are wandering in the desert in confusion. The whole time God’s plan was to get the glory unto himself through Pharaoh and his army. He wanted the Israelites to know that only He could deliver them, that they need not to look to man, but see His mighty hand of deliverance.
They complained and complained to Moses, grumbling and groaning not understanding why they were brought out of Egypt only to be succumbed to the desert.
Our Lens Vs God’s Lens
Isn’t that how we are sometimes, awaiting for the promise, the breakthrough, the healing. We only see what is in front of us, so we complain, thinking that we are alone, that no one understands, that no one sees what we are going through. Even though we say we have turned over things to God, that we let go of control, we still complain about how long it’s taking or why there is no manifestation yet. Oftentimes, we don’t realize that God is fighting for us the whole time. It may not seem like it in the physical when so many things are occurring around you and seems like there is no break, but God always comes through with His mighty hand of deliverance.
The Reminders
Even in the midst of the Israelites complaining, Moses said to them, “Stand Firm”. In Exodus, 14:14, it states, “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Conclusion
This was such a reminder, that no matter what may be going on around you or even the things that may try to come up to disrupt your peace, to know that the Lord will fight for you. He is way ahead making every crooked path straight. It is important to draw near to Him that he sharpens your discernment, that words of complaining, doubt, or unbelief do not leave your lips or saturate your soul. That even in the midst of being overwhelmed, overlooked, left out, talked about, disappointed, that God has already seen the outcome of that thing, if you will only be still and let the Lord fight for you. Be encouraged. Be Blessed.